okay so things at home werent all that great and i was not calm!
i decided to go for a walk,
so i set off towards the river track. but the weather was like aaaah dark clouds, scary and i was keen to turn home. but then i was all like no girl, you need space. keep walking.
and i started crying because i was thinking about everything
- im a sensitive soul -
and i just needed to speak to someone.
i saw a bench and just sat for ages, crying and thinking.
and when i say crying i mean sobbing, loud, ugly kinda cry :)
and then the heavens opened and the rain was pouring down. cute. real cute.
after a while i just started shouting "GOD! i need you, where are you? your meant to have my back. why are you letting this happen?"
and legit, it was like something out of the movies, the clouds disappeared and the sun shone down on me.
and then God spoke to me, he was telling me i need to lay my life down for him, and that no matter what all my burdens and fears are nothing He cant handle. I just needed to trust in him, give myself up to him! It was good.
And trusting in Him made me think about a message from elevatecamp. PS Ben Prescott was telling us how our relationship with God is like a little kid being stuck in a tree, our father will always catch us, we just need to be willing to trust in Him and jump! so good!
but im sure some of you guys are like 'woah cool story bro, does care' but honestly it was amazing. Knowing that God has your back is the best feeling in the world. Jesus fully touched my heart that day.
Im keen for you to have the same feeling.
Find jesus :D
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